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Birthmonth

“It’s my birthmonth!” I’d exclaim happily or indignantly, depending on what this statement was in response to.
“No, you get a day. A birthday. Everyone gets a day.”
“Well I get a month. Everything is always more intense for me, so should my celebration of my own life be too.”

When it came time to choose a name for myself, I chose my month. So that in a way, its always January. :-)

This year feels different. It has nothing to do with how young I’m turning this month. It has more to do with things suddenly having worked themselves out in different areas of my life. I’ve finally resolved almost all of the major ongoing conflicts in my life, and suddenly have the time and space to reassess my goals. What my goals and aspirations were 3 years ago may end up being different from what I want now.

I’ve won back the videos I co-produced with an ex and starred in at least half of, but it took about 3 years to get to that point. During that time the adult industry has been shifting. So I’m not sure if it’s a market I want to jump right back into, at least not yet. So I’m having the existing yet unreleased videos edited and will see how they do on VOD sites, Clips4Sale, and a membership site before I started producing much of anything new.

My home life has finally settled down, now that it’s become clear what Sophie Monroe’s true intentions were all of last year (see this post). With that turn of events, and the personal relationship dynamics that resolved themselves after that revelation, I’ve decided that I really want San Francisco to be my home, not LA, so I’m working on building out a new playspace (again) in SF.

I still plan on spending about the same amount of time in LA as I have been for the last year, about 7-10 days per month, but don’t plan on spending as much time traveling elsewhere. I was averaging 3-4 weeks a month on the road last year- it’s too much to keep your sanity or have any sort of less than superficial friendship or relationship with anyone, except yourself. I suppose the plus side is I got to know myself a whole lot better than I had previously.

Over the last year I’ve been questioning what it is that I’m really seeking as far as the arena of Professional Domination is concerned. I’ve been asking myself where I find the most joy and satisfaction in working with people in an intimate capacity lies, and this is what I’ve come up with:

I love forming long lasting relationships with those who submit to Me. Be it a genuine friendship with kinky play periodically or a long term slave training arrangement, the feeling of connectedness that I’m constantly seeking is much more prevalent in those encounters and relationships than the random one or two hour sessions. I love the intensity of first time meetings, but then am a little disappointed if that energetic exchange doesn’t continue. So while I won’t flat out turn down those who haven’t expressed a potential interest in developing something more with Me, I have already begun to prioritize those who have made a more serious commitment to Me. Right now I’m crazy busy, perhaps I’ve marketed myself too well? But it’s hard to nail me down for a first time session, and I apologize for that, but it’s just a matter of only having so much energy to give and refusing to overextend Myself more than I currently do. If you’re serious about wanting to session with Me, be politely persistent and eventually it will happen. I’m not ready to make the leap to attempt to having a booking assistant again (yet) so My inbox overflows daily and there is no chance I will ever catch up until I’ve found the right fit for someone to assist Me. So, if there’s longer than a 3-4 day delay in getting a response from Me, just resend your previous email with a polite reminder. :-)

The other area of Pro Domination that I’ve really been enjoying is working with couples. I come from a swinger lifestyle background so I’m comfortable and quite adept at participating in established couples intimate interactions while paying close attention to their stated boundaries and level of comfort based on their non verbal communication. For some couples, this looks like My “Serve up the slut” roleplay where I “prepare” which ever part of the couple is submissive to their dominant partner for them to enjoy on their own when I’m done. For others, I provide the framework for their own kinky play, and then stay to be a voyeur, a director, or sometimes to assist in filming their BDSM or fetish fantasy made reality so they have a long lasting memento. Still other couples come to Me seeking to learn new skills in a controlled private environment, so that they learn safely, correctly, and without judgement from non involved parties. Group learning environments aren’t for everyone.

Birthday Chastity Journal from m

A sweet chastity journal and note of affection from My sub m.

“Dear Mistress January,

Thank You again for a WONDERFUL birthday weekend!! My birthday, was far and away the best birthday I have ever had. I had such a great time with You in New Hope, PA, at my house and playing after wards. You really rocked my world (even more than usual)!! When someone asks me what my favorite type of cake is, I will undoubtedly smile, blush a little and make up an answer :-) I will never enjoy cake more than I did that night. The next day, ****** asked me if we had any cake left over :-)

On Tuesday as I was still coming down from my birthday high, I took some time to stop and reflect on things. December 10, 2012 was definitely the best birthday that I ever had, but it also might have been the best day that I’ve ever had. I know it sounds extreme, and I was coming down from a major adrenalin rush, but I still feel that way today. I’ve had a good life, and there are more days behind me now than there are ahead. As I reflected on some of the better days that I’ve had throughout my life, I could not think of a day that I enjoyed more than my birthday spent with You :-)

On Wednesday, as I was feeling myself again, I was also feeling extremely horny. I masturbated four times on Wednesday. I don’t know that I have ever masturbated that many times in one day. I lied down on my sofa, closed my eyes and played back Monday night in my mind. By the fourth time, I was out of fluids and it actually hurt, but I still couldn’t stop masturbating.

Thank You for allowing me to be out of chastity for ten days. I have not been out of chastity for that long since the beginning of July. It was amazing! During the course of the next week, I masturbated to the pictures that You took and posted, and also to the pictures that You took for me on my iPhone. Every time that I masturbated it was good to great. I can no longer imagine masturbating thinking of anyone other than You. I hope that doesn’t sound too creepy.

Finally, last night I masturbated while sniffing Your sock and stockings that I save for special occasions. The subtle scent has long since gone, but knowing that they were on Your feet and legs still makes them incredibly special to me and creates instant arousal. I know that this is probably going to be the last time that I am allowed to masturbate in 2012, and I wanted it to be special, and a special ending to an incredible couple of weeks!

I went back into chastity this morning and the return of the old familiar pinches, physical discomfort and heightened awareness of the bulge in my pants. Mentally though, it was comforting to go back into chastity and surrender the control of my orgasms to You again. During a time in my life, where I feel like I am lacking control of my life, this is actually an area where I take comfort and find security in giving complete control to You. As I’ve mentioned before, there is nobody else in the world that I would give control of my orgasms to. I don’t know if there is anyone else that I can say this about, but from the moment I met You I trusted You completely. That feeling has only grown stronger, the more that I get to know You. I look forward to the day (actually maybe a few days later after I’ve healed) when I wear Your Seraph Wings with pride. They will be with me forever.

I am very lucky that You are my mistress. You have opened up my mind, body and soul to many new things and pushed my limits to where I never thought that I would be able to go. I am even luckier to call You my friend. There is nobody that I enjoy experiencing life with than You!!! Thank You :-)

Respectfully,

m “

My submissive m’s birthday

Monday is My submissive m’s birthday.
To celebrate, he flew me to his hometown near Philadelphia PA to spend the weekend

Tomorrow, I’m getting my first Seraph symbol tattooed on my body, and am forever claiming him as Mine by having him get the same mark tattooed on his ass. As he himself said, I do own his ass :-)

m asked me what kind of cake I would enjoy for his birthday on Monday.
“The kind of cake I sit on and you lick off of my ass cheeks (respectfully of course)” I replied.

It’s cute when he blushes.

One of My Favorite sub’s Reflections on Chastity

“Dear Mistress January,

Thank You!!! It was AWESOME being out of chastity last weekend!!!

When I went into chastity for You for the first time a year and a half ago, I thought that chastity was simply about denial of orgasm. I was working during the day and would wear the cage in the evening when I got home from work, and on weekends. Most of the time during the week, I was asleep while wearing the device. I was obedient and did not masturbate unless I was permitted to. It didn’t seem too difficult. After the last two months (plus) locked in the device 24/7, I now understand that I was very naive when it came to chastity. For me, orgasm denial is only a component of the overall chastity experience. As I mentioned in my previous e-mail, it has really shaped and modified my behaviors and taken control of my psyche. You have taught me a lot in the two years that I have known You.

I’ve been feeling a lot hornier than usual since I’ve been locked up 24/7. I think it’s a combination of lack of work related stress, more free time, the constant (though unpleasant) stimulation from the cage, and not knowing when (or if) I am going to be permitted to have my next orgasm. I no longer take my orgasms for granted…lol.

I was very excited two weeks ago when You gave me permission to cum, and then told me to go right back into the cage. My orgasm was only mediocre. In hindsight I think I subconsciously put pressure on myself for a great orgasm since I knew I was going right back into chastity, and didn’t know when I’d be allowed out again. Putting the cage on with an erection is very painful and very difficult. Putting the cage on right after an orgasm is a close second.

When You told me last Tuesday that I could come out of chastity for the weekend, I felt like a kid counting down the days until Christmas. I came out of chastity on Friday night. I was feeling very depressed on Friday night, so I didn’t masturbate until Saturday. I wanted to treat it as a very special occasion on Saturday. Two years ago in NYC, You gave me a pair of stockings that I keep in a zip bag. Like a well aged bottle of Scotch, I only bring them out for a few special occasions each year (Your Birthday/my birthday/Thanksgiving/Christmas). I had a very explosive orgasm (but not as good as NY). The day that You gave me the stockings, You made me **********. Until that day, I would have never imagined or believed that I would be able to ***********.

Later on Saturday I pulled the sock that You gave me a year and a half ago (when You first came to visit me in PA), from it’s zip bag. Like the stockings, it is also reserved for very special occasions. I had another great orgasm. On Sunday, I had my final orgasm out of chastity as I fondly reflected on Your recent visit, particularly the moments spent smothered under Your Perfect Ass after You took Your outer layer of latex off :-) It was the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be!!! It was great! My cage is filling up tight as I am typing this and thinking about it again…Damn!!!!

It was really AWESOME coming out of chastity for a few days. Thank You! The swelling and bruising went down, no pinches, jabs or scrapes from the lock. I didn’t have to feel conscious about the bulge in the front of my pants. On a few occasions I did forget and automatically sat down to pee even though I didn’t have the cage on. It was wonderful to be allowed to have orgasms over consecutive days (only thinking of You of course)!

I went back into chastity as instructed on Monday. Not a waking hour passes that I don’t think of You again, and You were even in one of my dreams one night last week. Once again, I am conscious of the bulge, pee sitting down, take baths, battle my strong urges and endure the trials of the cage 24/7. Chastity has once again taken over my psyche. I submit to You completely, body mind and soul. To me, You will always be Fetish Queen of the Universe, and Supreme Ruler of my Universe :-)

…….

Respectfully and Submissively,

slave m

PS. Thank You for the text messages and e-mail. It helps to keep me encouraged and motivated when I am feeling weak. ”

** Parts of this email have been redacted for mutual privacy concerns :-)